I thought I would speak a little more about how hard this is right now. Adoptive parents, please chime in if you feel so led. So, here's the situation. I'm a mom. I have a son. We don't have a court date and he's not legally ours, but there is a little boy out there named Arthur and he's my son. Nothing could have prepared me for what I felt the day we got our call. No one could have explained the connection I feel to him and if they tried I wouldn't have believed them. So, how does it feel to have a son you can't touch, or comfort, or cuddle or know? IT SUCKS!! It's the hardest thing I've done and we're only in the first month! I know he's fine! I believe he's happy and healthy and loved, I just miss him. Any ideas about ways to make this wait a little less painful?
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
WHAT TO EXPECT
I asked for this book for Christmas. I knew that we would miss the first several months of this boys life, but I thought it would be fun to read about his development and just learn what I can about babies, since you know... I've never had one. Last night, before bed I was thinking about our Arthur and wondering what he was doing just like I do every night. I looked over at this book and got excited to open it to the learn about what it says about his age. NOT a good idea! What was I thinking? It's hard enough missing out on his life without knowing every little detail. I've decided. I don't want to know. At least not right now. It hurts too bad.